Down.

I guess I'm emo again? Grrrr.
Nothing I can do sometimes but just to express my feelings out here.
Tho I had blogged for so long but make no diff anyw? *sigh*
There were so many times I just wanna cry all out from my heart.
The pain inside you just won't und. But if you're here to help & care, I'll smile again.
But I'm so alone here far away from you.
Everyday I can only dream for your warm & hugs. :(
I want you to take me away from all the emptiness. Why do I have to be away from you?
All the love we left behind, flash back all the memories I'll never find.
I keep dreaming you'll be with me & you'll never go. But I wake up realizing I'm all alone.
Why don't you hold on to me again & never let me go?

Yea, you asked me to move on, I tried to move on, I tried not to think about you.
Focus on my studies, not missing you.
But all this while I'm just forcing myself to do so! I'm not being myself.
I don't wanna behave like this, I just want to be myself still loving you.
But I don't even get the chance anymore? How I wish I could start all over again?
Seeing you outside having fun & knowing you already get rid of me.
I just couldn't forgive myself for ever lied to you & that's why I ended up myself like that.
I just can't go on like this without you.
Everyday every min every sec I'm thinking of you. No matter what I do s well.
I'm acting like I don't care anymore I'm not missing you I enjoyed around
But that's just not how I really feel inside, I want to be somewhere
that I can totally express my own feelings, be myself & smile again like I'm v you.

I know we can never can all over again like you had told me dozen times.
All I can do is just to dream on & love you in myself.
I'm whispering softly here telling you how much I love you, Alvin.
But you will never get to hear me.


I miss the moment when we have so much fun.