You know its the best of all on 22nd Dec 09 night,
I did not expect you could tell me you could actually be v me.
Yea, in my heart, I'm very happy cause finally.. I have waited for exactly 7 months.
But yet, I dare not agree on the spot, I'm afraid you might not be happy
v me, cause I rather see you happy.
Somehow, thank you for giving me another chance.
Tho you have conditions, at first I'm not really happy with it.
But later on, what for I request so much? isn't that's good enough you actually
agree to be with me?

Yes, I'm sorry. I told Feon & Fennie, cause I was kinda happy,
I wish I could just slightly share it v them,
I didn't expect you to find out, but you gave me the last chance,
you're real good enough to me, & you're right.
I should be smart enough to know I can't hide secrets from you. I promise.

Finally, christmas eve, you're here v me for the whole day,
but if I know this could happened, I shall not drag you out. I regretted now
I hate myself for saying that, I totally can't believe I actually said so.
I feel so sorry, & because of that we ended.
At first I thought we're not over yet, cause you're saying that..
you're just making second thoughts.

But later on, you don't respond back anything sweet to me anymore.
I'm so disappointed & regret.
sp when you said you missed me, I can even feel so happy till tears dropped.
Can you feel my happiness lies on you?
I didn't expect this to end so fast, okay, Alright, I know you told me not to
take this too seriously, its myself for not making this statement clear perhaps?
I've waited 7 months, Alvin. 7 months...
I've finally waited for that chance dy but just because of what i said wrongly,
& everything ended.
Most of the time you give me chance, somehow there are something that I do & ruined everything. Why am I so messed up? Why can't I just appreciate the chance that you give me? Why must I be such a failure? Or I just don't deserve you?

Like today, I tried asking you,
but you don't even bother my question.
Yea, we're happy whenever I'm not emo. & that's why..
I take this chance to ask you.
I think I can already see your answer.
I'm sorry for always being emo, its just because..
I didn't know this could end up so fast. I thought I can at least spent
some time together v you tho nobody knows bout it.
Even you're sweet v me like last week also I'm happy enough.
Its better than now, even if I said I love you, you won't respond back anymore.
You won't be there telling me you miss me or you love me.
Or should I be glad enough that at least you still come over sometimes?

Sometimes I'm trying to tell you how I feel,
But I know I gonna end up crying,
& turn you down again. I'm sorry.
Last night you willing to stay whole night v me, I should be happy.
Thank you.


I never regret loving you because even if you don't love me anymore, I know that you once did and that is the most wonderful feeling because I think I just deserve yous love. I'm so sorry for backstabbing & cursed you before. I did so, so I deserve to get this repay.